Total F*cking Godhead by Corbin Reiff

Total F*cking Godhead by Corbin Reiff

I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about Chris Cornell, which I won't get into here (yet) in the spirit of keeping this a review focused on the book. Basically, that setup is to explain how eager I was to read this book. I wanted to learn more about the prolific, mysterious musician that dominated so much of my youth and continued to impact me in more ways than I realized growing up.

Overall, this book delivered what I expected. It begins with a disclaimer that interviews were hard, or impossible, to get, or perhaps fizzled out after legal issues sprang up with Cornell's widow, Soundgarden, and probably many more parties. So as much as I love a juicy tell-all, it's understandable that there was no way that would happen here.

The book had a bit of Cornell's childhood and a lot about his start in Seattle, which was interesting and definitely set the stage for all to come. However, the recording of one or two Soundgarden albums took up almost entire chapters, while ten years pass in two pages later in the book.

If the entire book was as in-depth as those Soundgarden albums, I would have a different feeling about it, because it would feel even. But the pacing was off here, and it felt like, once we reached 1997 or so, the deadline was looming next week and we had to race through the rest of Chris's life to finish a draft. With so much attention given to reviews, interviews, and performances earlier in his career, it felt lacking that the same wasn't done at the end of his career, especially as he tried so many different things.

Given that the book is (seemingly) mostly pulled from interviews other people conducted with Cornell and those who knew him, I think the writing handled that well in trying to make it feel more immersive, like the reader is along for the ride. There were detailed scenes at the beginning of each chapter that felt like stepping into the story, but then the chapter would backtrack to sometimes years earlier than that scene, and I feel like the time jumps weren't handled in a way that made the timeline clear. I typically had to flip back to the start of the chapter once I reached that event later and kind of insert the action back into the right context.

As I said, the book is largely written based on interviews conducted by others - but I do appreciate the writer's extensive notes on sources! I flagged a lot of those to look up later, so in a way, this almost felt like a textbook. It gathered the foundational information in one place for me, then gave me all the resources I needed to go down my own rabbit holes.

While there are some things I wish were different about this book, I say that "criticizing" it very loosely, because I realize it's an unauthorized biography written at a time when his death was still raw (if you're arguing it isn't always feeling like a massive loss) and there was a lot of legal mess abound. I don't blame the author and publisher for wanting to tread carefully in that landscape without giving up the project entirely. So as long as you're not expecting a juicy tell-all, this is a worthwhile read.

All the Bright Places: Book and Movie

It's no secret I love comparing books to their movie or TV versions, so when I saw there was a movie of All the Bright Places on Netflix, I wanted to re-read the book and watch the movie to compare them. I read the book when it came out, but didn't remember much of it, so I knew I would need to refresh my memory. 

Originally read May 2015 (and originally rated 5 stars): This writing in this book is so matter-of-fact that you don’t think you’ll get emotionally involved, but you will. It’s not fluffy and beautiful; it’s real. Niven brings attention to mental disorders, abuse, depression, the lack of need of labels and the vast need for compassion — all without hitting you over the head with the message. Finch and Violet seem like real high school seniors, meaning you don’t love them all the time and you don’t understand them most of the time. But it works. This is an amazing book, highly recommended. It will inspire you to get out and wander your state to learn more about it — and yourself.

Re-read September 2025: This was a re-read for me because I want to watch the movie on Netflix but didn’t remember enough. I remembered loving it in 2015 - 5 stars, rave review, the works. But re-reading it now, after the ways the country has changed since then, raising a son and seeing how Finch acts with Violet, being so pushy… It didn’t sit right with me. I know it’s not the point of the book but the way he kept going after her, making comments about wanting to kiss her and all that, really rubbed me the wrong way. Is it supposed to be ok because of his mental illness? Or because she eventually gave in and fell in love with him? I don’t think so. I see him as manipulative and pulling her into his orbit just to leave and fuck her up even more. Sure, he’s depressed and trying to feel things, but I just can’t stomach it in the current climate.

That said, the writing is beautiful, and knowing why Niven wrote it is really interesting and explains a lot about how Finch is portrayed, in my opinion.

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The movie... Wow. It cut so many details, so much story. I'm not sure I could have followed it if I hadn't read the book first. I don't think it stands on its own. Finch's suicide seemed completely random in the movie, in my opinion. And I do still think that, even in a visual form, they could have conveyed some of the interiority from the book. 

They cut Finch's mom and dad to just mentions instead of showing the characters. I think this is fine overall, and the mom definitely could have been cut from the book as well, but the dad's scenes seemed really important. The movie completely cuts out the little sister. Like with the mom - I think this works. I don't think she added anything to the book except another person Finch left behind, so the movie doesn't suffer for that.

As I mentioned, I think you need to have read the book to get anything from this movie. So many scenes were cut or rushed, but there were two waaaaaay too long scenes of people dancing in a field. It didn't convey anything to me when it was Finch and Violet or when it was Violet with Finch's friends later. It was just trying too hard to make you feel the moment when those precious seconds could have been used for literally any other scene that was cut from the book.

The Bridge by Bill Konigsberg

Thanks to @kidlitexchange and @scholasticinc for sharing an ARC of @bkonigsberg's The Bridge, which is out TODAY, so go ahead and grab your copy!

Aaron and Tillie "meet" when they lock eyes on the George Washington Bridge. Both teens are straddling the guardrail, ready to jump. The story is told in four different ways: Tillie jumps and Aaron doesn't, Aaron jumps and Tillie doesn't, they both jump, and neither jump. Each option is realistically fleshed out, showing how everyone even remotely involved with the teen reacted to the news.

This book is so heavy, so real, and so necessary. I hope it gets into as many hands as possible. I think showing the finality of suicide, and the reality of how it impacts others is so important. Teens (and honestly probably any age) need to see this, and it's even more powerful coming from someone who has been there. (Konigsberg has a moving explanation at the beginning of the book.) This is a hard read, depending on your mental state - aka hard for me during the pandemic, but this is probably a very crucial time for it to be read! I can't recommend this enough, and hope you recommend it to anyone you know who might be struggling, or who might need it to help those around them.